Wall of Seclusion

You melted the ice surrounding my heart,
wrenched out my emotions, tore them apart.
My island, my rock of defence, you invaded,
feelings once hidden, now are paraded
for all to see
when you laugh at my tears.

My life, always, once, ruled by my head,
now dominated by a heart of lead, instead.
That fear of hurt, of emotional pain -
that dread, it fills my heart again.
A dream of love came alive
in reality it died.

Your hands created ecstasy, a moment in time
a natural pleasure – the senses - sublime.
I craved your touch, desired your heart;
we pull apart.
I'm afraid once again, must pretend an illusion
and build that hardened, darkened
wall of seclusion.


Sue Tonge, June 1986 – hurting again...